Nobody is going to read this anyways, but, I feel so usless, so usless, so usless for everything, everything i try to do, im fourteen, im lazy, im not smart, ther are 12 years old child somewhere there in the other part of the woprld that can make a good website, by their own, and im here, im not even good at english, im not good at nothing i do, nothing, even if they say im pretty talented, it seems that they dont erally care of what i do, they just meh me, like i dont put effort on it, like i dont neee them to appreciate it for me to feel goo with myself, but no, everytime just a "how cute" and "thats cool" and thats all, i ahte it, i hate itb like none, they tell me to talk to them if im not fine, but why should i? they dont give me the solution for it, they just listen, and dont help, its usless, and them, when i feel sad, i feel strange, he, when he hugs me, it feels strange, it doesnt feel like a real hug, it feels like something odd, thta it shouldnt happen, and she, she never listen to me, the truly message i want to give her, to find some advice from her almost 50 years, but no, she say, "dont stress me" and yells, she always yells, even if i tell ehr to calm down, she doesnt listen to me, am i so usless in this family too? huh,. since teh moment i was born i suppose, he just stays becouse he knows we wpould starve, but if i dint exist, it would be better, he woulnt have to carry the height, that height he always arch on his back, just becouse of us, he would be living alone, without a two stressing people, without wasting money for two people, just himself in peace, she, i dont know, but, it would be better for all of us, not even in my family i feel inpeace, and if i die? and if i just finish with this already? fom the espectations everyone have of me?taht one excelent student they know? that one that just have 100 on grades? working and not having time to enjoy live? learn everything, and what else do you want me to do? hwta else if its not that feel pathetic? usless? ugly next to the other girls? , out of place EVERYWHERE AND ALWAYS? At school, at home, everywhere i feel i hear them laughing at me, making fun of me, looking at me, i know, i know, its ecause of my face? my body? my hair? my color? my glasses? me? yes, it is,now how could it not be that? you silly whore, BRO IM STUPID AS HELL, HELL NAH.